I am so lost, I feel trapped and I am ..I can leave with no problem, but I cant leave my boys, I left one marriage and my two dogs, and here I am with two more babies, how can I do that to them ? And my Giz, hes gone I know but I can go outside and sit with him, If I left my boys I couldnt stand it, they're all I have and no one will take someone with two dogs even if they're tiny, things have gotten so much worse, I cant move or breathe here , I'm always wrong, everything I do is wrong, I knew better, but he needed me...how pathetic I am , hes a drunk, abusive everything he pretended not to be , I knew better than to let anyone in...If I can get out of this I never will again...never never