I found your little hat today  sitting in the basket on top of the frig, my hand just froze and as much as I wanted to pick it up and hold it to my nose I just couldnt do it, I loved seeing you in that hat and your elton john sunglasses, how you made me laugh...now how my heart just aches for you..one day maybe I can look at those things, your toys that are still here, all your favorites that now I have in a drawer and basket that the other pups cant play with, they will always be just yours, hurts too much to think of another playing with them, I miss you so much my MoMo, its unbearable at times, I love you so very much, I hope you can still feel my love , you are the greatest gift I have ever recieved , I hate being without you

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Bonni, I know there are so many reminders. I wish that I could make sense out of all of this- for both of us.I\'m just so sorry you\'re in so much pain. Everyday I go through the motions for the most part as if things were \"normal\". They\'re not, and I think they never will be. We will miss them always remembering all the times we had- the good and the sad times. I felt the same way you did with the toys- just hurts so much. Please know I\'m here, hoping that it will get easier some how. I believe that Giz is around you and loving you- so very much- just as I believe the same of Serina-I DO believe it!!! Please take care of you-ok? SOOOO MANY **HUGS****& Love,Laurie
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I too put up Lei\'s favorite toys so no one can play with them. You must be talking about the hat and glasses from your profile photo of Gizz? That is a funny sight, what a little cutie! I am kinda glad you didn\'t smell it though. I did that recently with the shirt I was wearing when Leibchen passed in my arms. I saw it in my closet a few days ago, closed the door, held it to my face and breathed it in. It doesn\'t smell like her anymore. How I wish for you that his hat still smells like him...and know how truly sorry I am if it doesn\'t. How can all of these beautiful things that we and our babies enjoyed in life bring so much sorrow now?!? Today my son (21yr old) and I were running errands and in the middle of a typical car conversation I saw something that shut me up immediately and I couldn\'t speak to tell my son why. Tears were being strongly fought, but a few escaped. Two lanes away was a white van. The van from the pet crematory service I used for Leibchen. Reminders of our babies are everywhere, I know, but I have never seen this van on the streets before and wasn\'t prepared to see it today. Yes, I know how things can set you off Bonni and bring those tears and remind you how much it still hurts...even when you thought you were doing better. It gets better, but it never really goes away. Peace
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our cavalier king charles spaniel,max,has been gone for six years now ,and when i had my little jake i had to buy everything new,i just couldn\'t bare the thought that jake was using max\'s things,we still have his collar and lead on his hook in the kitchen,i just can\'t stand the thought of removing them,somehow it seems disloyal to max,remember our pats become our children,we wouldn\'t think twice about grieving for family and friends would we,i had a cat when i was a teenager,and i still cry my eyes out whenever i see a cat who looks like her,i hope your pain eases for you if only for a while,love and furry hugs,helen.
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I\'m so sorry for your loss and especially that you had such a sad reminder this morning. Your letter broke my heart. When my Gabby passed away and we finally got a new puppy I couldn\'t bear to have the new baby play with her favorite toy, I put it up in the closet and have not taken it down since, too painful, so I really know where you are coming from. I pray that the pain in your heart gets less each day and somehow you find a way to cope with your loss of your precious baby. I used to have a Gizmo too and we also called him \"MoMo\" he was a Lhaso Apso and the love of my daughters life, she has never gotten over his loss.
Take care dear one....Hugs, Kimmy