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I've been out of it for some time now. Work has been real slow so i have a lot of time on my hands. It seems that i should be able to get a lot of stuff done. Instead, i just have been sitting around being depressed. Well, I don't want to do that anymore. I miss being on this site. Getting support from others, giving support to others; it just makes me feel better. Also i am going to start getting up and doing things. I have to tile the floor. Not only will i go ahead and do that, i will turn it into a father son project, and teach him how to do it.Where did all of this sudden umf com from? I guess it came out of my therapy session yesterday. She informed me that i was clinicly depressed, and that i should be on meds. The problem is, is that i cant afford it. I cant afford the therapy that i am recieving either. The catholic church is paying for that, but they wont pay for the meds. My therapist also informed me that the church is only willing to pay for three more sessions. She was kind enough to offer me 6 more sessions from those 3 remaining payments. After that... well i guess i will be on my own. She recomended a state run facility that would see me, and also offer meds at a huge discount. I have mixed feeling about the meds though. I am the type of person that doesnt turn to medication very quickly for anything. but i am tempted by the promise that i would have better concentration, and feel more motivated to get things done. Its strange, when  work is real busy, and i have no time for myself, i feel more motivated to do things. When i have huge amounts of time on my hands, all i want to do is sulk. well after next week sulking time is over for the rest of the fall. Once again i am headed off around the country. First to Miniapollis at the end of August. After that i head over to Phoenix for a week, come home for a week, and then back to Scottsdale for a week. The Phoenix trip should be interesting. For about 6 months i lived there back in 10th grade. I would love to find some time to look a round and see how much has changed since the last time i was there. Of course the old neighborhood was not a very good one back then. It's probably worse now. i lived close to W Pima and 7th ave. I am at least going to try to get the crew to agree to go to Casa Garcia's which is the only restaraunt that i remember, but i had real good memories of that place. Well after Sept I have a few shows here in New Orleans so i can be home for a while. I like to work and be busy but i like to work at home more than working out of town.Well its time to go now and bring my son to shcool.