JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER ! FOR IT ALL TO BE OVER! NOTHING EVER GETS BETTER! ONLY WORSE! I GUESS IT'S ALL MY OWN FAULT! I'M SO DEEP IN A HOLE I'LL NEVER GET OUT! I SHOULD'VE GOTTEN HELP SOONER! NOW IT'S TOO LATE! THINGS ARE GETTING SHUT OFF! I'M ABOUT TO LOSE MY HOME! WHY? BECAUSE I HAVE PROBLEMS? EVERYBODY'S GOT PROBLEMS!! I SHOULD JUST BE ABLE TO PULL MYSELF UP, FACE THIS SHIT AND DEAL WITH IT!!! BUT, I CAN'T ANYMORE!!! I CAN'T HANDLE THE FRUSTRATION, THE DISAPPOINTMENTS, THE ANGER, THE SADNESS, THE HOPELESSNESS, THE NEVER ENDING BULLSHIT THAT IS LIFE! I'M TIRED. I'M WEAK. I'M A FAILURE AT EVERYTHING I'VE EVER TRIED TO ACCOMPLISH IN THIS LIFE. I'M A BURDEN TO EVERYONE WHO HAS EVER CARED ABOUT ME. THEY'VE ALL GIVEN UP ON ME AND SO HAVE I. I AM INVISIBLE. I AM ALREADY DEAD.
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U\'ve got me worried again! It\'s hard to see it now, but it will get better. I have to keep telling myself that, too! I know what\'s it\'s like at the bottom of that hole, but there is help and hope out there and people who care. I\'m one of them! Is there anyone you could live with for a while? Or to help financially? It\'s hard to pull yourself up when you\'re down so low. I\'m sorry that you\'re feeling so bad! Did talking last night help at all? U are not a failure at everything! You\'ve conquered alcohol addiction and similar situations, before, at least that\'s what u said. U are not a burden to everyone! U are certainly not invisible. I can understand feeling dead. I really hope u don\'t harm yourself and seek more help! It\'s never too late. Please do or please call me or something! I\'m here!
Hey, Remember that you are cool. You are cool because I said so. That is not just my opinion, but a fact.
I understand how you feel. Please take good care of yourself and just try to do stuff moment by moment.