weight

I have lost alot of weight so have been forcing myself to eat more.   This morning I made myself some french toast and shared them with my dog.  She stands up on her hind legs and balances herself with one paw on the counter, while watching me cook.  She's so cute!  She loves french toast!  I use pure canadian maple syrup. mmmmmm so good! I use wheat bread....better for me.  I will probably have a sandwich for dinner and one for supper.
I am very depressed today thinking how the divorce settlement is so much in her favor. To get what I deserve, I would have to go back to being the A hole that I was when I was drinking.  I don't want to do that and I know of no other way.  I don't know how to undo being my wife's doormat.
My AA sponser told me to bend over and take it like a man. How humiliating!