Why?
So alone right now....Perhaps I deserve bad things happening to me.
Just canoodled money out of my husband saying that it was for my credit card, along with pay day loans, long term loans, clothing accounts.
So I'm working to be a slave to all these things, so I thought taking a chance would help?
And then the monster cleaned out my bonus that took me year to earn. Cleaned out loans, cleaned out grocery money, cleaned out dog food.
Oh my god, please send help...please
How do I stop? I'll hold your hand while walking through the beach. Carry me on your shoulders. Be my mother, my father, my brothers and sisters. But most of all...breathe for me. I can't breathe...
I think about the judgements from people. Trying to be better than. Trying to have a sense of purpose when there's nothing left inside me but a hollow shell. Where is my soul? Did the online gambling suck it out of me. I pray for its safe return. Right now I'm five minutes gambling free. Help me to change that into five hours, five days, five years....
Get me through this so that I can be a better person.
Hold my hand...
Reading a book from another of your angels struggling with this demon. "She Bets her Life" Please help me to finish it so that I can make the necessary changes to get better, stay better, and live better. I want to change, I am ready.
Thank you for carrying me
Just canoodled money out of my husband saying that it was for my credit card, along with pay day loans, long term loans, clothing accounts.
So I'm working to be a slave to all these things, so I thought taking a chance would help?
And then the monster cleaned out my bonus that took me year to earn. Cleaned out loans, cleaned out grocery money, cleaned out dog food.
Oh my god, please send help...please
How do I stop? I'll hold your hand while walking through the beach. Carry me on your shoulders. Be my mother, my father, my brothers and sisters. But most of all...breathe for me. I can't breathe...
I think about the judgements from people. Trying to be better than. Trying to have a sense of purpose when there's nothing left inside me but a hollow shell. Where is my soul? Did the online gambling suck it out of me. I pray for its safe return. Right now I'm five minutes gambling free. Help me to change that into five hours, five days, five years....
Get me through this so that I can be a better person.
Hold my hand...
Reading a book from another of your angels struggling with this demon. "She Bets her Life" Please help me to finish it so that I can make the necessary changes to get better, stay better, and live better. I want to change, I am ready.
Thank you for carrying me
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My dear friend,
Your higher power is carrying you at this very moment and every step you take.
Come as you are. Thats how I want you.
Come as you are. Feel quite at home.
Close to my heart, Loved and forgiven,
Come as you are, Why stand alone.
No need to fear, Love sets no limits,
No need to fear, Love never ends.
Dont run away, Shamed and disheartened
Rest in my love, Trust me again.
I came to call sinners, Not just the virtuous,
I came to bring peace, Not to condemn.
Each time you fail, To live by my promise,
Why do you think Id love you the less.
Come as you are, Thats how I love you,
Come as you are, Trust me again.
Nothing can change the love that I bear you,
All will be well, Come as you are
Be strong, you are going to be alright.
Love,
Victoria