6 months post breakup and still feel like shit
How pathetic is that? Weekends are still just horrible. Went to the dog beach with my daughter last evening.. Jesus driving by all the restaurants and bars by the water with the outdoor dining on a beautiful Friday evening, all the couples out celebrating Friday, all those places we used to go to. I just got more and more depressed the closer we got to the dog park. This going through the motions just to get out of the house doesn't seem to be working for me anymore. I've given up booze but had a few last night just to numb my thinking and eventually help me sleep I just didn't fcking care anymore. Now I have a bit of a hangover but I felt like shit anyways so big deal. I think this funk stems from the fact I learned she is seeing someone 2 weeks ago, even though the split is 6 months old. I read this morning the average time to move on is 18 months lol. No FKING way I'm gonna make that. Feeling like this for another year? What's the point???
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We all feel it Coop, I woke up early this morning and realized that I was still in love with my ex. the feeling was so strong and unexpected, I\'m ok because I don\'t have a choice and I was able to handle it and let it go. Weekends are hard, even when I know to expect triggers, they still come unannounced. it does make me sad, I really miss the good parts of him. Here is a quote I marked: You were the best of loves and the worst of loves........
that really hit home for me. Hang in there gang, somehow we will make it.
Ps: a year does seem like a LONG time but looking back on my separation and coop you are right there with me, it\'s already been 6 months or so......and we\'re still kicking (most days) Maybe a year doesn\'t sound so long after all....hugs
Pss: my mom passed away in Oct so it is very hard not having her with me but I have felt her a time or two since she passed so I know she is watching over me, thanks mom!!!! I was reading her old, old journals just the other day and I swear I could hear her reading them to me, I felt her sitting next to me on my bed. it was an amazing moment.
Thank u yougospam ...very kind words.
One day at a time right? Seems like yesterday and already September.
Trying to forge ahead,I hear you :)
Sometimes you have to take life a moment at a time...literally!
I know you will get thru this and you will be okay. You just have to ride it out and get thru the storm. It sucks....but you will be able to look back at this one day as a learning experience and you will be stronger because of it.
Hang in there my friend. I am praying for you each day. (((HUGS)))
Thanks as always Daisy I appreciate it :)
And I sure hope so. At least to enjoy a weekend again :)