6 months of Paisley
Paisley has been here for over 6 months now. How time does fly. I thought having her would heal my heart from the loss of Addyson. But unfortunately it has not. I will be holding Paisley and loving on her and all of a sudden I am filled with sadness and I start to bawl. I guess there will always be sadness in my heart. I guess I will always feel that a piece of myself is somewhere else. This is just my life now.
Every milestone Paisley makes is so exciting and yet so sad. She is rolling over like a pro now and almost sitting up on her own. And we never got to see Addy do anything.
Dont don't get me wrong Paisley is my life right now. But Addy should be here too. I had 2 pregnancies, 2 c-sections. I should have 2 children. My doctor put me on anti depressants because of my crying fits and it has helped a bit. It was like all my sadness for Addy and all my stress during my pregnancy for Paisley and all the emotion after her birth just all crammed together and overwhelmed me for the first few months. I had the baby blues BAD!! But I am coping everyday. Some days are hard, and some are not. I'm sure you all know what I mean.
But, on a positive note. I added updated pics of Paisley to my photos. She is such a pretty girl and she is such a good baby, I am truly blessed.
Every milestone Paisley makes is so exciting and yet so sad. She is rolling over like a pro now and almost sitting up on her own. And we never got to see Addy do anything.
Dont don't get me wrong Paisley is my life right now. But Addy should be here too. I had 2 pregnancies, 2 c-sections. I should have 2 children. My doctor put me on anti depressants because of my crying fits and it has helped a bit. It was like all my sadness for Addy and all my stress during my pregnancy for Paisley and all the emotion after her birth just all crammed together and overwhelmed me for the first few months. I had the baby blues BAD!! But I am coping everyday. Some days are hard, and some are not. I'm sure you all know what I mean.
But, on a positive note. I added updated pics of Paisley to my photos. She is such a pretty girl and she is such a good baby, I am truly blessed.
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Of course you are longing for and MISSING your Addy, how could you not?
I am thankful that all is well with Miss Paisley and have no doubt that Addy is being the best sister she can be. Wishing it were earth side with all of my heart.
You were really coming into my heart the last few days and I\'m delighted to read how you are feeling and doing. Thankful you are receiving some help too from our doctor as this healing path is most certainly a team approach I have discovered.
Sending lots of loving care your way and to your sweet family,
XO Joanie
Love you Joanie!! Can\'t thank you enough for ur wisdom and guidance.