6 Months
A super heartfelt thank you to all the ladies who read my story and commented on it. I appreciate your love and hugs.
This past Sunday was 6 months already since Addy went to Heaven. It seems impossible that the time has flown by so fast. Unfortunately I still cry everyday. Halloween and Thanksgiving were very tough on me, I just can't believe she isn't here sharing all these special times with me. I found a sense of peace in all this, I went to a psychic about 3 months ago. I just wanted to see what she would say. This is a local lady, and this would be my 3rd time with her she is very good. The 2nd time I seen her she told me she seen a baby. Anyways this time around I thought she would see Addy right away but she didn't and I was annoyed, she must have picked up on my thoughts cause she stopped in mid-sentence and said ok dear what do you want me to talk about? I just started to bawl I couldn't even say the words. My friend from work went with me so she had to tell her. This is what the pychic said:
I wanted this child to fill emptiness. We both thought that we couldn't conceive. Child had experience of being held, loved and wanted but she was not ready for the outside world again (reincarnation). Child had similar fears that I have about life. I did NOTHING wrong. The positive thing in this experience is that I learned how much I could love. She is still around me and loves me but is not ready to come back to the physical world. She is fine, she is free of thoughts and holds no blame on me. The psychic seen weakness in her heart but said she felt no pain. She sees her with a big beautiful smile on her face but she feels a lot of regret for putting me through so much pain. She wants me to start evolving and to realize how beautiful I am. She is gonna stay with me and help me heal.
My friend wrote all this down while the psychic spoke with me so I would remember it. I feel like I have to respect Addy's decision that she wasn't ready to come back yet and happy to know that she is always with me. I don't know if psychics are real or not but everything she said made sense and like I said gave me a sense of peace. I still get mad at the world and Addy for leaving me but I am taking it one day at a time.
This past Sunday was 6 months already since Addy went to Heaven. It seems impossible that the time has flown by so fast. Unfortunately I still cry everyday. Halloween and Thanksgiving were very tough on me, I just can't believe she isn't here sharing all these special times with me. I found a sense of peace in all this, I went to a psychic about 3 months ago. I just wanted to see what she would say. This is a local lady, and this would be my 3rd time with her she is very good. The 2nd time I seen her she told me she seen a baby. Anyways this time around I thought she would see Addy right away but she didn't and I was annoyed, she must have picked up on my thoughts cause she stopped in mid-sentence and said ok dear what do you want me to talk about? I just started to bawl I couldn't even say the words. My friend from work went with me so she had to tell her. This is what the pychic said:
I wanted this child to fill emptiness. We both thought that we couldn't conceive. Child had experience of being held, loved and wanted but she was not ready for the outside world again (reincarnation). Child had similar fears that I have about life. I did NOTHING wrong. The positive thing in this experience is that I learned how much I could love. She is still around me and loves me but is not ready to come back to the physical world. She is fine, she is free of thoughts and holds no blame on me. The psychic seen weakness in her heart but said she felt no pain. She sees her with a big beautiful smile on her face but she feels a lot of regret for putting me through so much pain. She wants me to start evolving and to realize how beautiful I am. She is gonna stay with me and help me heal.
My friend wrote all this down while the psychic spoke with me so I would remember it. I feel like I have to respect Addy's decision that she wasn't ready to come back yet and happy to know that she is always with me. I don't know if psychics are real or not but everything she said made sense and like I said gave me a sense of peace. I still get mad at the world and Addy for leaving me but I am taking it one day at a time.
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I also spoke with a medium after losing Kala. It was a great experience for me and helped a lot. Like everything, there are good and bad, honest and dishonest, real and swindlers... I\'m very cautious with humans, but I DO believe!
Hold on to the love that Addy is sending every day! It is real, and it is just for you!
I hope Kala has many opportunities to hold and play with Addy. Kala loves babies!
Love you!
Love Addy!
Whatever brings comfort is a tool and I feel that this is what this experience was for you.
May Addy BE with you always and let you know that you did nothing wrong... This was her path too and it is what brought you two together. She is your forever daughter as you are her forever mom. This gives me peace when I think of it this way and I hope it does you as well.
XO Joanie
Gentle hugs to you....Your little Addy...So precious, so beautiful!
God Bless you...
Hugs, Rachel