6/6/11
I haven't done a journal on here for a while so I am do I guess, I also do MH journalling on another site as well.. which is more of a primary site for me...
Today was a strange day for me ..not necessarily terrible ,,but not great either ,,it was in the OK range,,,,I do not think of myself as being suicidal and have no intentions in that respect at all...I have a range of physical issues that are what they are ,,nothing really devastating at this point ,,and if I go ,, I go,,simple as that ,, the way I look at it ,,I beat out two of the Beatles,,so I am doing pretty well all tolled..
I continue with my support groups and my recovery groups,, I remain unemployed or maybe unemployable ??? at this stage (61). Hurricane season is here or will be here June 10. With all the climatic anomalies going on I am a bit (understated) stressed about this season..No house insurance as no company will underwrite in Florida anymore for any home except new construction from the '90's on.. for any price..except for a State of Florida concoction that is terribly under capitalized and if a storm hits they will fold almost immediately..so it is like throwing money into the toilet ,,and they wanted $3 grand per year..
Today was a strange day for me ..not necessarily terrible ,,but not great either ,,it was in the OK range,,,,I do not think of myself as being suicidal and have no intentions in that respect at all...I have a range of physical issues that are what they are ,,nothing really devastating at this point ,,and if I go ,, I go,,simple as that ,, the way I look at it ,,I beat out two of the Beatles,,so I am doing pretty well all tolled..
I continue with my support groups and my recovery groups,, I remain unemployed or maybe unemployable ??? at this stage (61). Hurricane season is here or will be here June 10. With all the climatic anomalies going on I am a bit (understated) stressed about this season..No house insurance as no company will underwrite in Florida anymore for any home except new construction from the '90's on.. for any price..except for a State of Florida concoction that is terribly under capitalized and if a storm hits they will fold almost immediately..so it is like throwing money into the toilet ,,and they wanted $3 grand per year..
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I hope things get better for you. Is the rain storms affecting your area? I know it was in Texas, not sure about Florida.
Life - I try not to think about it most of the time as it makes living it a bit beyond my grasp.
I wish for us improved life filled with happiness.
((hugs)) Patricia
To do or not to do,,,,that is the question,,,at hand,,,I am very frustrated a lot more often these days,,,the doing part has to do with just saying screw it and go full tilt into retirement and give up actively looking for employment ,,since this seems a very hopeless endeavor...