Wow, I haven't felt this weak and fatigued since the onset of CFS over 20 years ago! I think it's due to side effects of radiation treatments and the estrogen blocker. After all we need some hormones for normal bodily function.
I mentioned this to my oncologist she immediately refers me to see a psychiatrist because I also mentioned this is making me depressed
I try not to get angry and see the humor in life itself, but I am not always successful..lol I have been exhausted and filled with depression and some anger that I journal, so it doesn't come out sideways..
Now I just found something suspicious in the breast I was operated on and a bit nervous but hoping it's just scar tissue. I am going to surgeon Thursday. I feel on good hands with him.
I have missed everyone here so much! I just can't keep up and I know you understand. I am grateful to be her today. Life get so lonely as we try to manage and traverse through it daily with this invisible disease. Now that breast cancer has been added to the mix for me nothing has changed. My son is so accustomed to me being ill he just treats me the same as usual. I understand though. I was so glad to read the latest topic and responses. He is living his life as best as possible with 3 boys to care for. I actually was at his place for Christmas through New Years and I lived through it! Lololol. I even cooked on Christmas Day and I am so happy I did because I feel lousy whether I do or I don't. I truly enjoy the boys too. The sound of "Grandma," gives me goosebumps.. It helps me have some purpose. I can't take them on alone but I sure do enjoy being able to do the little I can when around them. Well today is the 50TH SUPERBOWL and I am a football fan!!! My team are the New York Giants who didn't do too well this season, but the QB Eli Manning had a great season. And now his older brother Oeyton Manning is playing today. He isn't as mobile as the opposing QB - Cam Newton due to many injuries, but I do hope he and the Broncos beat the Carolina Panthers so Peyton can retire on that note! Carolina is an excellent team, but as the saying goes ... "On any given Sunday!"
I enjoyed watching football with my son this season. It's one way we can bond. I do know my football and he likes that.
Happy Super Bowl 50 to anyone interested. I'll be drinking my smoothies and eating veggies lol. Although I think I am going off and ordering a veggie pizza Lololol... I really would like hot wings, chips and all the nasty great tasting food most eat at Super Bowl parties.
Hugs and love to all here dear ones
I mentioned this to my oncologist she immediately refers me to see a psychiatrist because I also mentioned this is making me depressed
I try not to get angry and see the humor in life itself, but I am not always successful..lol I have been exhausted and filled with depression and some anger that I journal, so it doesn't come out sideways..
Now I just found something suspicious in the breast I was operated on and a bit nervous but hoping it's just scar tissue. I am going to surgeon Thursday. I feel on good hands with him.
I have missed everyone here so much! I just can't keep up and I know you understand. I am grateful to be her today. Life get so lonely as we try to manage and traverse through it daily with this invisible disease. Now that breast cancer has been added to the mix for me nothing has changed. My son is so accustomed to me being ill he just treats me the same as usual. I understand though. I was so glad to read the latest topic and responses. He is living his life as best as possible with 3 boys to care for. I actually was at his place for Christmas through New Years and I lived through it! Lololol. I even cooked on Christmas Day and I am so happy I did because I feel lousy whether I do or I don't. I truly enjoy the boys too. The sound of "Grandma," gives me goosebumps.. It helps me have some purpose. I can't take them on alone but I sure do enjoy being able to do the little I can when around them. Well today is the 50TH SUPERBOWL and I am a football fan!!! My team are the New York Giants who didn't do too well this season, but the QB Eli Manning had a great season. And now his older brother Oeyton Manning is playing today. He isn't as mobile as the opposing QB - Cam Newton due to many injuries, but I do hope he and the Broncos beat the Carolina Panthers so Peyton can retire on that note! Carolina is an excellent team, but as the saying goes ... "On any given Sunday!"
I enjoyed watching football with my son this season. It's one way we can bond. I do know my football and he likes that.
Happy Super Bowl 50 to anyone interested. I'll be drinking my smoothies and eating veggies lol. Although I think I am going off and ordering a veggie pizza Lololol... I really would like hot wings, chips and all the nasty great tasting food most eat at Super Bowl parties.
Hugs and love to all here dear ones
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Sorry to hear you are so down physically and really admire your emotional strength so much. Sending hugs and healing light...and since our NE Pats aren\'t playing, I wish your team luck :)
Hi Debra ~ There\'s a number of things I\'d like to respond to in your Journal, but for now I\'m just going to say that I hope you enjoy watching the Super Bowl! It surprises me that you\'re a football fan ~ I\'m glad that was something you could enjoy with your son.
The Broncos are definitely the underdog ~ the Carolina Panthers look really strong being 17-1. I\'m with you though in that it\'s amazing to see a 40-year-old quarterback still good enough to play in the Super Bowl ~ go Peyton Manning!
I\'m going to try watching over at the pizza pub ~ fried chicken is off my diet but their pizzas are probably worse for me. It may be too noisy for me as I\'m used to the loud volume of the TV but it\'s might be more of the \"Super Bowl experience\" than just watching at home on my laptop. I don\'t have a TV though the online streaming doesn\'t include the commercials ~ odd. Enjoy!
Oh I so hope you start feeling better. What a thing-- Cancer on top of CFIDS. I say YAY to the pizza as a form of celebration. We have to take care of ourselves, but we gotta live a, too. Everuthing in moderation, as they say. I end you loving thought s and prayers for well being. I hopw your MD has some ideas and dealing with your depression is a necessity. You need the lift! I hope you get the care you deserve, Love,
Denise
My mom had breast cancer and I know those anti-hormone drugs really take it out of you. I\'m so sorry. I can\'t even imagine being MORE fatigued than I am now with CFS. Wow, that is some serious fatigue, girl! You are in my prayers. You have a good attitude about your son. I know it hurts to be misunderstood, but you\'re letting him live his life. I hope someday he sees that you have always done your best. Much love.
Hi Debra! SO glad I found this journal. I don\'t get notifications when my friends\' journal!!
I\'m sorry you are so down right now. This physical illness along with your cancer battle has to be mind boggeling!! I\'m glad if you see a therapist. Maybe you could use the therapy for simply talking it all out! I have a therapist for my anxiety disorder that sprang from CFS! There is nothing wrong with seeing one. Are you on an antidepressant? I wanted to be on one, but my body wouldn\'t tolerate the drug! UGH.
I\'m so happy you got to see the Super Bowl with your son. I watched it by myself, as I just lost my husband, but I totally enjoyed it. I do hope Peyton retires! It\'s time to leave on a good note. I\'m a Giant\'s fan myself! LOL. It\'s interesting that we ladies do like football! It\'s one of my favorite sports EVER!!!
I love hearing \"grandma\" too! It just brings us up a notch in our joy level!
Praying that you will begin to feel better, and see that doctor so you can have some peace of mind that your body is stable for now. Can\'t put a price of peace of mind, right? xox