Today is another day filled with stress, regret and confusion. Last night I broke down and went back to the casino and lost. Big suprise! Today I am thinking about the pain that I cause my boyfriend when I make these bad decisions. I'm not sure why he puts up with me to be honest. Whenever I read my past journals and the journals of my friends... I feel stronger. I feel like I can stop this addiction. My new goal.... visit this site and write and respond to my DS friends more often. If anyone reads this... thanks for taking the time. Thanks for your support!
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Today is going to be a good day! A day filled with relaxation! No gambling, no thoughts of gambling! I am back on my road to recovery and this time around I am stronger! I am also going to work towards quitting smoking! It is a nasty habit and I am tired of my addicitions dictating my life on a daily basis. When did I give up the driver seat and allow my addictions to drive? Too long ago... time for me to take the wheel back!