I think there comes a point where you realize you need to see someone when you've spent the last few weeks crying yourself to sleep because you don't know how to handle your own emotions.
Getting out of bed is more a chore than anything else. Eating just isn't something that interests you anymore and the sight of your own refelection makes you want to scream.
When the thought of just leaving the house without telling anyone has become more than just a dream. It's a bag packed in my wardrobe.
I'm not sure what it is I'm feeling. I'm just sick of crying for no reason.
Other people's drawers are filled with chocolates and stuff. I have 2shelves and a drawer just for all the pain killers. I'm sick of the sight, I'm sick of the smell.
It's exhusting putting on a brave face. Just because I'm 22 doesn't mean I'm not allowed to voice my frustrationa about my condition. That's pointed at my family. Just because I'm not cancer, doesn't mean I'm not important. Sounds harsh but she's been cancer free for several years now. Stop forgetting I live here too
I matter
I try as hard as I can without being scared of rejection.
It's got to the point I'm ignoring my boyfriend. He just doesn't get it. Me feeling myself slip into the dark is no teasing matter. You don't realize what you're doing even after I tell you what it is you're doing.
Sitting in the dark in my room, trying to cry quietly, trying not feel pathetic.
I don't know if I can battle myself anymore
Getting out of bed is more a chore than anything else. Eating just isn't something that interests you anymore and the sight of your own refelection makes you want to scream.
When the thought of just leaving the house without telling anyone has become more than just a dream. It's a bag packed in my wardrobe.
I'm not sure what it is I'm feeling. I'm just sick of crying for no reason.
Other people's drawers are filled with chocolates and stuff. I have 2shelves and a drawer just for all the pain killers. I'm sick of the sight, I'm sick of the smell.
It's exhusting putting on a brave face. Just because I'm 22 doesn't mean I'm not allowed to voice my frustrationa about my condition. That's pointed at my family. Just because I'm not cancer, doesn't mean I'm not important. Sounds harsh but she's been cancer free for several years now. Stop forgetting I live here too
I matter
I try as hard as I can without being scared of rejection.
It's got to the point I'm ignoring my boyfriend. He just doesn't get it. Me feeling myself slip into the dark is no teasing matter. You don't realize what you're doing even after I tell you what it is you're doing.
Sitting in the dark in my room, trying to cry quietly, trying not feel pathetic.
I don't know if I can battle myself anymore
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You should see someone. You are still in control and can take or leave what you are told to do. Your pain is real. Most people don\'t know how to handle an unseen pain. A broken leg in a cast is easy to understand but a broken imbalance of your emotions is hard to understand simply because you can\'t clearly see it! I hope you are able to find the help you need. (((HUGS)))