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i don't know what to to anymore. I went and saw the nurse and she gave me her number because shes concerned about my history with eating disorders and depression. Now I'm on the edge, because an ex got in contact with me after hearing about my condition and i thought i would tell my bf and not keep it from him my bf went mental and said to stop talking to him or our relationship is over. I think he overreacted because my ex was just asking if i was ok cause he knows about my self harming history and doesn't want me to relapse. It was crazy. Long story short, bf told me he hates me to my face and I'm just so lost and going in a downward spiral. Everything is just falling apart for me and I have no idea how to handle it anymore. I just have no idea