Ok, so yesterday I was sooooo freaking out and nervous and just basically losing my mind I even posted a topic on the discussion board yesterday asking if anyone knew if my symptoms were only caused by the hormones that I was taking. I spent a lot of time looking up pregnancy symptoms on different sites. I fought back the urge to take a HPT. I felt like pulling my hair out and I even cried a few times. Right before I went to bed I prayed that God would give me peace in my mind, body, and soul and today I woke up this morning and all of the tension and stress was gone. I just feel like I put the whole situation in God's hands and why should I run around stressing over something I can't control. I asked God to take over for me and I feel if I'm stressing and worrying my self crazy then I haven't truly given it over to him because I'm still trying to handle it myself, and why? I can't change a thing. Whatever happens tomorrow is going to happen regardless if I am calm or all worked up. So why not just relax and trust that the Lord will carry me through this. I know that no matter what the result is tomorrow I am going to cry, but if it's a BFN I've decided that I will not let it take me down to the level of depression I went to last time. I am a true believer that all things happen for a reason and that I can choose how I let these things effect me. I can lay down and cry and let problems win or I can cry, stand up and choose to let all situations make me a stronger, better person. I choose the latter!! I believe God will do what He knows is best for me and my DH. I can't see into the future but He can and He knows what lies ahead for me. I feel soooo good today after 2WW of emotional roller coaster. Now don't get me wrong, I'm still hormonal. Today I cried over a commercial that wasn't even sad! But I no longer feel like a basket case. Please pray for me!!!
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I\'m praying for you my friend!! I\'m so glad you have God\'s peace! He loves you more than you could ever imagine!!
Prayers for you! It sounds promising!
i test today as well and sadly i have not given all this up to God and i wish i had wored harder to do so. hormonal or not, i have no excuse for taking my anger out on Him, but i did. i read this post of yours and it did give me some peace of mind- thank you. i wish you luck today.