Boy, it sure has been a while since I've been here, but I know it's time!  That decision to buy that bottle made me spiral back into the pill-void and now I am taking 20 7.5's a day (if not more).  Again, I want off!!  I found out that I have osteo-arthritis in my neck and had a bone density test done only to find out that I also have osteoporosis (at 38 yrs old!!).  I've been having problems with my 13 yr old....he's angry all the time, swears and says racist things.  His dad is in a half way house, so he's not there for my son.  I took my son to a dr. and he's on prozac and I keep having talks with him about his "hate issues" and keep letting him know he's not raised that way!  I offered him counseling yesterday, but he says he'll try on his own, so we'll see.  I only had one friend that I knew for about 30 yrs and she came looking to come back into my life, but she turned on me for no reason and said some horrible things (none of them were true) all because she flipped out and is a fruitcake!!  But, that hurts my feelings that people are so selfish and will turn on you when you least expect it for no reason.  It seems like it happens everytime, so I'm DONE with that!!!  Work has really been sucking lately that I don't even want to get outta bed!  I've made up my mind that regardless of all this crap that is my life....I'm going to start weaning down...I have 200 and need to start weaning from 20+ a day.  I hope someone out there reads this and will help support me!!  I could really use a friend that knows what I'm going through!!  I have a TON of pain in my neck and NEED to see my chiropractor!!  I'm going to be logging on here on weekdays, so I hope someone is out there!!  Pray for me!!