Well Tricia is mentally and physically tired after bein up all night being the strong one of the group. There are only four of us that stayed in Kansas when Jess and our friends moved. Three of them are headed to Cali at 12:30 today. I'm not going. As much as I would like to see people and go there I can't. They are all going to see Ben, Kerri, and Cali's grave sites and I finally have gotten past that in life and can't handle adding that with everything else going on. Plus after so many crashes in Cali I don't think I wanna be in a car there. So when they land they are going to call me and just do speaker phone that way we save all the energy of me talking to everyone seperate. But it's me and I put my happy face on and pretend life is just fine as always, til I'm alone with my headphones, notebook, and myself then it can all come out.