Today was the day before my last day for walmart. I knew I would be sad and miss everyone but today was different. When I got off I started talking to one of my coworkers and I don't cry (in front of people) and I don't hug people. Well I ended up hugging her and breaking down and I know I will again tomorrow. Everyone thinks it will be so easy to move. Yes Topeka is my home, yes I like bigger towns. But at this walmart I am very close to people so it's hard to leave them. Moving to Topeka also brings up alot of old history and drama and pain that I personally don't feel I am ready to handle but I don't really have a choice. I'm so confused.
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hi,
it is better for u i think that u did break down, and get your emotions out,a good cry help\'s once in awhile.you will feel better if u can express yourself,and it is good for other\'s to see that you care about them.i know it is hard sometimes but it is better if you can trust for your own sake and show love,caring etc.it took me a long time,but i can now,and sure once in awhile you may get rejeted by some that are also afraid to accept or show it,but that is their loss.allow yourself to be happy,loving and kind.if you do not,then you let whoever violated you win,never let that happen because you are not only cheating yourself but others in not trusting.you have to love yourself that is important,and you are the only one who can let YOU do it.it is not your fault,don\'t punish you!i was told that you have 2 choices,think about driving a car(you can either keep focused and look at life and look ahead from the from the windshield and sides or you can look in the rearview mirror.that is your future as opposed to your past.ask yourself,which is best?you cannot change your past but you can control a lot of your future.you will never forget altogether,but you will be happier if you try to let some things go.wherever you live,stay on your computer and this site for the support ,you will need from time to time to do that.some people cannot understand unless they have been there,it would b nice if they could,but that is not real life.u deserve to be happy no matter where you live.i will be here as long as i can be,anytime for anyone,everyone deserves support.i would not have made some not so good choices in my life,or allowed some to treat me as they did,had i always had the support i have found here.i am 60 and i lost so many years.keep your head up high and be proud of who you are.when you read some of the stories about others on this site maybe you can feel as i do,how much worse it could have been. love ya,good luck,love forever and ever a survivor
It\'s so difficalt to move to a new place, but it\'s a fresh start. It\'s like a fresh rain, it clears away the bad and renews the good. Sure it will be hard but be possitive. I think it will be good for you. LOVE, your friend always,.....Miranda