Hold me close and don't let go;
I'm so scared to be alone.
I've been by myself for too long,
And always had to be strong.
Now I only want to rest;
And lay my head on your chest.
Hold me close and don't let go;
These wars I fight no one knows.
Now whisper how you love me,
Say it tender and softly.
I am weary and soon will sleep,
But with you no longer will I weep.
So hold me close and don't let go,
For I never want to be alone.
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What could you say,
if your daughter ever got raped?
or say your son was a mass murderer,
or had a life you couldn't escape?
What could you say,
if your body was so broken,
because your father beat you,
and called you names the remain unspoken?
what could you say
if you fell into depression
became bulimic or anorexic
because of your body's imperfections?
what could you say,
if tear came to my eyes?
would you hold my tightly in your arms?
or simply watch me cry
what could you say
if my words came to an end?
Would you help me recover from broken hopes
and help me make amends
what would you say
if I were never here
would you continue on with everyday life
as I slowly disappear?
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Is This Really Goodbye?
Look me in the eye, don't walk away.
Say all the things you want to say.

Dont lie to me,
Don't pretend to be a friend to me.

The person I have to be,
the girl outside,
is so much stronger,
than the girl inside that can't hold on much longer.

The girl outside is just a fake,
inside, I'm about to break.

I'm so weak inside but it will never show.
Only reflected in the scars, I know.

Everyones telling me don't do this and don't do that.
I need to break apart from this image I've made that everyone sees,
and I just need someone to believe that I can overcome these things,
that drag me down and make me want to die.

So now the only question is, is this really goodbye?
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Darkness
Darkness fills my life everyday.
But why does it, I can not say.

Noone seems to believe me or the pain I go through.
Noone has an idea, not a clue.

Darkness is in my mind and in my sight.
Everything I see is as dark as night.

I know I'm not blind but I can't ever see the light.
I may never know if things will be alright.

Darkness is in my veins, my skin, my nails and in my hair.
Everyone hates me, it's not fair.

I won't do anything crazy, I'm not that dumb.
But the pain is unbearable, I'm numb.

Darkness is in what I read and write.
Everything will remain locked away tight.

There will be no light to guide me through the dark and despair.
I've always known that life isn't fair.

Darkness is all around me, everywhere I go.
You won't see it but it's there, I know.

Noone will ever understand my pain or see my tear.
Happiness seems to be my biggest fear.

Darkness goes through me every second of my day.
As I stand and as I lay.

There will be this hole, instead of a heart.
And there will always be pain inside, tearing me apart.

Darkness shall stay with me until I die.
And deep in the shadow, where I'll say goodbye.

And my soul that lies on the floor.
Shall be lifted.....no more
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I hate when I get looks, as if I have changed in some form or fashion.
I hate when hateful words are said to me, it hurts.
I hate the way I get treated, as if I was not important.
I hate when I try to speak, and I get ignored.
I hate the way I choose not to do anything about it.
I hate the hateness that's going around.
I hate the times I try to keep my anger locked inside.
I hate when my anger gets to me, and self destruction becomes a friend.
I hate how I trust people.
I hate when I try to get help, and I get screwed
I hate the way I was even born at all.
I hate when it when things don't turn out right, and they turn out wrong.
I hate the way it happens all the time.
I hate all the pain that I so constantly feel.
If I had one wish....just one fucking wish,
I would wish that all this pain,
all this anger,
all this hate,
would go to everyone else.
So you all could see it my way,
and then there would be no more laughing,
no more laughing at me
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Promise
You told me you wanted to be with me,
you promised me you'd never leave, you
said we'd always be together. When you
took my hand I knew something was wrong
from the far away look in your eyes I
knew what it was, you wanted to take
back all you had said, and all you had
done, and close it up inside. You said
that you loved me, you said that you
cared, but I fell for it all when you
promised me we'd always be
together, Forever.