I'm so suicidal and no one seems to wanna help me? My parents think I'm kidding when I say it. My shrink just gives me more meds that don't work. I started packing things and writing goodbye notes to my parents and family members. I've called the 1-800-suicide line like every day to talk. The only thing keeping me alive is I can't kill myself. My mom has my pills in Topeka and I get tested every week to make sure I'm on them and not stashing them. I don't know what to do because I've lost everyone I care about and the few people I thought cared think it's a joke and I will get over it when the meds actually start kicking in. Any advice?