Sometimes writing is the only way I can get feelings out.
Now I'm watching over you,
because I cut it way too deep,
don't worry I'm still watching you,
I watch when your asleep,
I know you miss me so much,
and you loved me with all your heart,
but I'm in a better place now,
and you cant tear it apart,
you don't have to worry now,
I'm with some of our relatives,
just don't do what I did,
and you shall live,
I'm always around you,
and always on the inside,
I'm in the wind,
in your dreams,
anywhere you seek me,
just have the time of your life,
and don't cut it too short,
take in every second, minute, hour,
because you'll never know when you'll
end up where I am
Now I'm watching over you,
because I cut it way too deep,
don't worry I'm still watching you,
I watch when your asleep,
I know you miss me so much,
and you loved me with all your heart,
but I'm in a better place now,
and you cant tear it apart,
you don't have to worry now,
I'm with some of our relatives,
just don't do what I did,
and you shall live,
I'm always around you,
and always on the inside,
I'm in the wind,
in your dreams,
anywhere you seek me,
just have the time of your life,
and don't cut it too short,
take in every second, minute, hour,
because you'll never know when you'll
end up where I am
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Girl you gotta give up the notion that suicide will fix your problems. Some think that our consciousness is still around after our bodies are gone. The Christians say that suicide makes you eternally damned. I had to give it up. Sounds like you could use some inspiring adults in your life and I wish I could be there. I have a 22 year old daughter myself. When I was 19 I had a death wish. I breaks my heart for myself. Work on your thinking daily that life may not be what you think. Look for the suprises, the beauty, the good and dwell on that instead of the negative. Keep writing. Have you ever painted? I write and paint constantly as well as walk walk walk. Life is good for me today. My life is hard but I changed my thinking to believe that hard is not bad. You can work on yourself and become a source of strength for people your age. It\'s more rewarding than you think. Hang in there! I\'m the one leaving this site. I have to preserve my optimism or my chances are lessened and I have to go without medication. I haven\'t found the support I need here. But that doesn\'t mean that you won\'t. Stick it out and allow for the possiblity that you will be one day be threw what you are going threw and in the sunlight of the world instead of the shadow and you will be so glad and such a compassionate and wise person. My heart is with you. Love.
Get as much out as you possibly can by writing or whatever it may be that does not hurt you. My motive for writing is to inflict the pain, the death of a feeling onto a page.. not myself. You keep writing.. people will listen to you here there are SO many people who understand