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just when I think I'm ok, boom! Right before I fell asleep my heart felt like it was breaking in half again and all my fears and sadness came back. I prayed for peace to sleep and I guess it worked I fell asleep. This morning it is lingering but not as bad as last night . I really hate this, I really don't want to feel sad anymore . Frustrating. It's been 4 months since he told me he wanted a divorce . I was angry at myself last night too. I was thinking how can I be sad over this jerk who was my husband but who is now a total jerk and a stranger. Temporary feelings I hope. Today I am off to work .
just when I think I'm ok, boom! Right before I fell asleep my heart felt like it was breaking in half again and all my fears and sadness came back. I prayed for peace to sleep and I guess it worked I fell asleep. This morning it is lingering but not as bad as last night . I really hate this, I really don't want to feel sad anymore . Frustrating. It's been 4 months since he told me he wanted a divorce . I was angry at myself last night too. I was thinking how can I be sad over this jerk who was my husband but who is now a total jerk and a stranger. Temporary feelings I hope. Today I am off to work .
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It is absolutely temporary. 4 months is still a short time to process this. Don\'t beat yourself up too much. Yes your stbx is a jerk and that should help you in your resolve to know that you are absolutely doing the right thing but it doesn\'t mean that you can just forget the man he once was to you. He has changed now, but you fell in love with him for a reason so give yourself time to grieve that loss. Our husbands are gone and replaced by pathetic versions of men who selfishly take. Be gentle with yourself and understand that your stbx is the one who is loosing in this breakup. He might think this is what he wants just like mine thinks it is what he wants, but in the end they will be alone and bitter and we will have our lives back. Free to do what we want. I hope that you are feeling better today. You will get through this and be stronger for it.
Amen to what you both said. I\'m almost two years out and while things are much better emotionally I still have some sad times. Broken you are right, our husbands are gone, by their choices and one day they will realize what they gave up on....US, it really is their loss because we are awesome and the best thing that ever happened to them!!!! Right??
Dont be hard on your self, it\'s a rough journey we are on but we will get through it, let the emotions come and take your time in healing. I am sorry for your pain.