5:37pm

my weekend was fine but it seemed like i let it go sour.
today there were so many things going on, my best friend wanted to play some tennis, my brother n wife were having a bbq and invited me over, a friend of mine was having some bday party another friend of mine was having a going away.  where did i go? none of these places.  i left my home (moms house) to come back to my apartment to be totaly alone...and why?? i have no idea.  i feel bored and there was so much to do today and instead i opted to come here sit in silence and waste a sunday.  dont know why, i have no real reason, i mean my situation ...well i already know where that is going...  my H called me today i called him back and he was a total jackass to me, he yelled at me because he couldnt hear me.... i mean that had nothing to do with me so why am i letting him put a damper on my day?  why am i sitting here alone like a jackass?  i hate feeling down, its annoying, to me that is