5/3/12

I find myself cycling into a dark place ,,again,,I think there are a multiple reasons for why I seem  to be dropping into this place,,,,First and formost ,,I think that I have lost any motivation to get up off my ass and get involved in something ,,,that seems easy enough to remedy,,,,I just  have not done it ...Second,,,I am isolating again,,,this comes in spurts ,,but it seems this has been going on for a very long time and this is not good at all,,It makes me depressed and sad,,,and I don't want to be there ,,,Third,,,I am not working, employed, doing something productive,,,if even volunteering for something ,,,this is also my fault for lack of motivation,,,,
There is little structure in my life and I have allowed things to go free fall,,,and it is  time to pull back and regain some control, some structure, some definite form to things,,,