5/22/2014
Just like I figured. As a result of the contact yesterday even though it was practically nothing and even though I do believe it was an honest mistake on his part....my mood is in the toilet. Having a really hard time keeping myself from telling him that I miss him. Constantly fighting tears again.....When I get off work this afternoon, I will go home and go straight to bed so I don't have to fight this battle all evening long...again.
Even better is that this is a long weekend and it's the weekend of his family reunion. The last one I went to was 3 years ago. He was a bit of an ass to me that day. I didn't understand it at the time. Of course 6 months later, I DID understand. This will be the first family reunion for #4. Got a feeling this is going to be a rough weekend for me...again. No money to do anything fun and not enough sleeping pills to help me sleep the weekend away so I don't hurt
Even better is that this is a long weekend and it's the weekend of his family reunion. The last one I went to was 3 years ago. He was a bit of an ass to me that day. I didn't understand it at the time. Of course 6 months later, I DID understand. This will be the first family reunion for #4. Got a feeling this is going to be a rough weekend for me...again. No money to do anything fun and not enough sleeping pills to help me sleep the weekend away so I don't hurt
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Remember the mantra you wrote yesterday, start repeating it again. I was the same, I know I sound like a broken record. Go out, even for a nice long walk to a park. I went shopping very early in the morning, so I would not have to deal with people. You are a strong, smart and resourceful woman. This is just a blip on the radar. Try not to take too much meds. They can make things worse. Hugs