5/19/2012

Sometimes life hits a bit of a bump, the wheels rattle a bit , there is momentary disorientation and then things get back to normal. It has been generally ok for me. I had some expenses come down the road and some emergency repairs but handled them alright. I am able to meet my bills and that puts me ahead of the game. I go to AA meetings, have a few friends there so that is a positive. I will reconnect with another 12 step club today or tomorrow,, which I haven't been to in quite a while..it is a bit of a drive with gas prices as they are, but it is something I should do to expand outward,,
I was hoping to see my sort of new friend Toni who I met last week at this place last night..like a fool I was to shy or something to upgrade to connection,,,well,,all in good  time if it happens,,I know that I present a good character to others and I just need to maintain a focus and direction,,I am not working and it is very problematic for me if I should get a job with all the obsticles that make that not a good decision at this point, but I see the downside beyond the money,,and it sort of flattens out my life and makes motivation for things an effort,,,I need to spark and idea, then an interest, then a motivation, attract social interests off-line is best, and then mix them all in a soup.