5/12/13
Thought all this crying crap was over. Guess not. Been a long time since I cried so hard, I just wanted to curl up in a fetal position on the floor and sob. Not sure how much is because ex and how much is because I miss my mother. Next month will be the first Father's Day without my dad. And he would've been 80 in July...This sucks big-time. Crying so hard I can't hardly catch my breath..
Feeling marginally better i guess. woke up with horrid headache (i'm prone to bad headaches when stressed). One of those need to stay in a dark, quiet, cool room headaches. Gonna take a pill, drink some hot tea, soak in a tub, maybe read a little. Take care of myself today. Wish the pool was open so I could go swim laps. Heard it won't be open until June which pisses me off. Hoping church shopping will be successful and I can find one where I feel at home. I think that will help me a great deal. It's been a long time since I was involved in church, but it used to be a large part of my life.
Feeling marginally better i guess. woke up with horrid headache (i'm prone to bad headaches when stressed). One of those need to stay in a dark, quiet, cool room headaches. Gonna take a pill, drink some hot tea, soak in a tub, maybe read a little. Take care of myself today. Wish the pool was open so I could go swim laps. Heard it won't be open until June which pisses me off. Hoping church shopping will be successful and I can find one where I feel at home. I think that will help me a great deal. It's been a long time since I was involved in church, but it used to be a large part of my life.
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