4th Jan

A few more texts exchanged with Brian this morning. I made him promise not to contact me again. Then in the afternoon once my son had gone away with his dad, I felt like going out to the Park I met Brian last time. I went and sat where we sat that day and grieved for what had been lost. After 15 minutes i gave into the impulse to text him to say I was there. No reply from him. But I felt a lot more at peace once I did my crying. It was the first alone time I had since I got his text yesterday morning. I know he was no good for me soulmate or no soulmate......It just feels heart wrenching.......
 
On a positive note, I remade my bed with fresh sheets after giving it to my friends for the night, I went for a walk, I cooked myself dinner, had a nice refreshing shower and listened to music. So all in all, a good day with lots of self care.