update

I am not getting any counselling....its hard to find the right one and stick with it...........for now its just my psychiatrist, and it is hard to tell him everything, even though I have been seeing him for the last 10 years...........there is so much just bottled up inside slowly destroying me and I cant do a thing about it....... the thoughts are not as intrusive today, but still there...increased seroquel dose last night and this morning....now feel less motivated to get things done....cant win either way.... I see psych dr again on 13th may...... will see how I go between now and then and see if I can maybe write some stuff down to give to him or maybe email him.... I just want to feel some kind of normality for a change..