Day 1

I know I have a problem drinking too much alcohol.  I am almost 50, and I have been drinking more than I used to off and on for the last 8 years.  I stopped for 3 months 3 years ago because the drinking was causing problems in my life and making my marriage worse.  When I started drinking again, it was ok for quite a while.  However, in the last 5 months, it has become too much again.  When I do tests about addiction, I am on the boarder, but I know I have a problem, and I don't want to continue like this.  My main challenge right now is that I would like to cut down my drinking and only drink on the weekends rather than stopping altogether, but I am concerned that I will go back to drinking daily eventually as this seems to be the cycle I am doing.  I do know that if I am successful with the only drinking on the weekends (not more that 6 drinks total for the weekend), and I do go back to drinking daily, that that will be it.  I will then quit for good.  I found this website yesterday and started reading some entries and I was so inspired and excited that I instantly changed my goal and will start out with not drinking for 11 days.  That is, I will not drink the first weekend.  Today is day 1.  Although I am feeling anxious and scared about not being able to have the willpower to not drink when the urges come, I am feeling even more excited and happy about all the possibilities that are possible by me not drinking. I might share this for my first entry when I join a group.