day 8
I cancelled my visit with mom today.
I have such mixed feelings about this.
I have not told my sister about my gambling problem and do not feel ready to.
Mom is a trigger for me because we go together and she has alzheimers.
If I tell her I stopped going she will forget two seconds later and ask again.
I am my sisters break.
I cancelled my visit with mom today and feel guilty about it because I know it means my sister won't get the break she needs but I feel like I have to do some more self care and create some more distance and success from gambling.
I know I will have to face the temptation at some point.
I am anxious and upset that taking care of me meant letting my sister down.
Not taking care of me and getting burnt out is a trigger for me though.
It's hard.
I have such mixed feelings about this.
I have not told my sister about my gambling problem and do not feel ready to.
Mom is a trigger for me because we go together and she has alzheimers.
If I tell her I stopped going she will forget two seconds later and ask again.
I am my sisters break.
I cancelled my visit with mom today and feel guilty about it because I know it means my sister won't get the break she needs but I feel like I have to do some more self care and create some more distance and success from gambling.
I know I will have to face the temptation at some point.
I am anxious and upset that taking care of me meant letting my sister down.
Not taking care of me and getting burnt out is a trigger for me though.
It's hard.
Replies
You did the right thing. If you don\'t take care of yourself, how will you be there to help your Mom and Sis? Maybe you find something else to do with your Mom - something you will both enjoy.
I haven\'t told anyone about my problem, so I understand how horrible it feels.
Take care of yourself.
Thank you. I think at the moment I am sensitive to letting anyone down because I let myself down so much with this addiction, you know? I guess I need to work on not feeling so guilty about things.