him

today am writing and telling for the first time i hear i  voice when i cut i call him josh even tho its my voice i hear he tells me the truth and hurts me telling me how worthless i am sometimes he's right and other times he's not but i hear him all the time mostly when i cut i think of myself as an average 18 year old ok upbringing and good life pubs m8s but i smile and pretend when things are really bad i love to cut i duno y i just do i dnt wana do it but yea ya know its hard bang ill stop for like a year then just do it randomly sometimes josh helps me out and tells me not to do it lol anywho i just wantedto know if you ppl think am nuts lol i havn't told my family or friends this and do you think i should tell them?