Cant beleave im saying this , but My anxiety could of been a blessing in disguise, My recovery has been quite steady now for about 4 months, What i mean is im not the same person. Ive been useing a number of techniques along side each other, i thought id cover all bases to be sure.  one of my techniques is to make a voice recording with some very carefully chosen words , Example-- I  am able to relax easly and comfortabley in my own body and in my mind. I am calm confident and self -assured.---I do not worry. Im in control of my own thinking and i think only the thoughts which create and fullfill the best in me. ---I have made about five pages worth. I have made self talk tapes for just about everything from anxiety to   to inproving my relationships to Business, Anyway the idea is to put my head phones on in the morning while im getting ready for work, and let my subconscious here my own voice, and the idea is im reprogramming my Sub Conscious mind, whats good about it i spent one day making the tapes and all i have to do is pop them on for ten minuits a day and then carry on with my day. Well how are they working out? Its been eight weeks and it feels like im becoming the person  i describe in my tapes.   As a side line i decided to add a Business self talk session, Although my business is steady i havent been able to land a Big contract in  years, I decided to put the new me to the test today, I landed 2 Hugh Contracts this morning. Im convinced my old mind was programmed with doubt and fear and was working against me. another example, is that  my anxiety is becomming history, Just as discribed in my tapes. Im going to spend the next few evenings recording some more tapes directed at my phobias.