Just lazing about the house today, stuff to do but cant be bothered , feeling good though. in fact thinking back to a few months ago this place was so different, pacing around the house fighting my thoughts, waiting for the panic. I didnt know of this site then, i probabley would of been shouting help, every other day. My heart goes out to those ppl still in that place, if only they knew how much better things will get with the right guidance, if only i knew at the time things would get better, then i guess thats what this site is about. Its been a while since i was bored and its a nice feeling, I cant wait to get on a flight (When i ready of course)  and say im bored instead of freaking out.