Moving

It's been a really rough night. Dylan and I got into it about be bing sad all the time and then he got mad about having to get me food bc I have been "bitching about being hungry all day" bc I hadn't eaten. So I told him not to worry about it bc I lost my appetite. He ordered me food anyways and I refused to eat it bc I was mad. He then told me he wasdropping me off and going to his friends house. When he dropped me off I left the food in the car and he started screaming at me. I was numb at that point. He thentook the food in the house and slammed the door so hard it came loose from the frame. Then proceed to text me about being a piece of shit Amd he told me he didn't give a shit what I did anymore. I went and cut so badly and the  cleaned up and lay in bed crying. Then dad called me sobbing bc he missed me and can't go in mu room bc it made him sad and so he cried and I cried and I told dylan I missed home and then he told me to go the fuck hom e then.. talked to angie and tanner and austin about it and called adrienne and long story short I'm moving back to washington.  Laying here numb and just.. I wanna die. Idk what I always do wrong..