Today was a good day; I'm over the slip up and mentally I felt clear again and ready to keep myself on track... Noone said it would be easy, but over the weekend I read many many posts on here and they were very inspirational.  It does sadden  me to think I will have to be consciously aware of this monster for the rest of my life, but so be it. There are worse things to struggle with; not sure what they are at this moment, but anyway :] :]Thanks everyone for the words of encouragement on this site - it's so helpful...Finishing Day Three GF   (again).... Smokeygirl