Give me what i need to end this, i won't think twice, this time i'll go all the way. i can't stand to take another breath...  I want in, i want out, my body burns from the inside, out.  What does it take to get what i need?    It's like a drug, that's killing me, i can't stop if i wanted to.     Every time i look at you i want to say it, i want to SCREAM it!     How could i let this happen?   I've tried so hard to keep it under control but now the shit has hit the fan and i can't seem to duck.     Every morning that i wake i wish i hadn't, i want out!!!    I don't want to be here anymore, do you understand me?   Every word, every breath, every beat of my heart, I scream on the inside for it all to stop.   Every word, every step, every tremble and every shake,  I fake a smile and move on.     Every look, every bite, every smell, every taste, You're still not listening, I WANT OUT, Out of this house, out of this town, out of this country, out of this thought, out of this skin, OUT OF THIS WORLD!!!!      I'm not trying to sound deep, or moving, i want to die!!!!!      Every thought, every sound, every note he plays, Mr.Writer, your WRITING IT WRONG!!!!     I want to be happy, i want to be free from everything around me!     Every night, every day, every tear i shed, They still don't listen to a word i say.   There is no other way to let them know just how i feel, ... dead, disgusting, pain, suicidal, sick, burned, alone, pushed around.    I don't need help, i don't have a problem, i don't have a life, i don't want a life.    I want OUT!!!!There is no feeling, there is no emotion, only pain and fear of what tomorrow will bring for me. Every day, every hour, every minute, every second, i think about it the harder it hits me, Every corner i turn it's just another disappointment, it's just another kid they don't care about, i know i push it, i know i'm not perfect, i hid behind anything that i can, behind my failing grades, behind my disgusting appearance, behind my bedroom door.   Even in my own skin i cannot stand to in this body, this life this world.   I don't know how else to say it.... I want to be dead, Six feet under, bug food, painless, away from it all.   I don't want to be alive...                                  ---