well, i went to wal-mart today to get my phone and it turns out my best friend left out a VERY important detail to the phone.... there was a big sale when she got hers, the cheapest one there was over 40 dollars.... so i'm not getting a phone.When we were there ( my mother and i) she spent 50 dollars and me?  0 dollars lmao.we got mcdonalds afterwards and i was going to pay for it but she said i got it, so she paid for it and i still have not spent one penny of my 30 dollars lmao.I've noticed, for like the millionth time in my life, that... i have no life!I hate being me sometimes...most of the time.. Does it make me a bad person if every time i'm on the highway i want to open the door and jump?        I was on my way to the Vollyball Tournaments with my mom and her friend and my mom's friend was driving in her car my mom was in the front gabbing away with her friend and i was in the backseat, i kept thinking; 'what if i just open the door and jump? '       I felt like crying, i had to actually sit on my hands to keep from opening the door.       My aunt Heather (my father's sister) kind of told me that i was depressed, last year.      I haven't told her about Ed, but i almost did a couple of minutes ago over msn.I kind of want to tell someone in my family but it will make it's way back to my mother, and that would suck!             Well, i don't really have anything else to say..                                            -Perfection