GRRRRRR!I feel like screaming and if i lived in a house and not a stupid apartment building i would as loud as i could.I have THEE worst headache in the whole entire world and i feel like crying, i don't have anything to do and my weekend is almost over.    Sometimes i feel like my life should be over too, i don't have anything to live for, my life is hell and so fucking painful!I hate this soooooo much !I feel like such a burden on my family, three disorders, a failure, and a screwup.   What have i got to live for?          I can't do anything right, i'm worthless and no one cares. They never did. They never will.No amount of drugs, crying, writing, singing.... whatever can't make me feel better i'm never gonna be as good as i want me to be.     I hate myself in everyway, fat, ugly, everything that i do and say.    I feel like i can't talk to anyone about anything, i want to be alone, i want someone to give a huge hug but no one cares, no one wants to talk to me, no one wants to be my friend... i repulse people.    Hell, I repulse myself.             I just want to leave this ugly,lifeless body, i'm never gonna be able to do anything.     Britney Spears probally has a better life then i do, i get all the things i need and most of what i want, besides being in this body and being who i am i have it pretty good.                                                I WANT OUT!!!!!