Some how something makes me want to tell my mom or at least my sister. But i dont know how to even tell anyone anymore.I weighed myself when i got home today and i weighed my lowest in a long time, i was soooo happy i actually ate something reeeeeeally fatty to 'celebrate' and then i fell asleep and then randomly weighed myslef again and  i gained 4 pounds!!! i felt reeeeally gross, and i couldn't do anything because my mom was home so i just left it alone and now i'm feeling the rath of it now.  Lately my stomach has been reeeeeally sore and stiff like i had been running for a long time or i am just reeeeally bloated.  I didn't eat all day today i hardly ever eat breakfast and my best friend didn't have a lunch and she was all feeling sick so i gave her my lunch and her being her didn't want to take it because she 'would feel bad'  it was just a package of raw mr.noodles, and i can't really eat mr.noodles anymore cooked or raw it makes me feel really sick i think it's because of all the salt or something i don't know.  But she ended up taking them making me promise to eat some of them with her so i ate a few peices and then i had four short bread cookies in Family Studies and then ate when i came home.... hm i guess i did eat a good amount today.   I can never tell when i've lost weight for good orjust for that day or even hour i go up and down like crazy, my highest ever was 227 and my lowest.... which was today :D:D:D:D 211 i was sooooo happy, i normally weigh about 215.  yeah once in a while i felt pretty dizzy and i almost threw up today but i tried really hard not to i got locked out of math class :P i guess i am going to have to tell her sometime huh?i am gonna eventually get caught one day or another.    i hope that i don't though.i have to go do the stinking dishes before my mom comes home again.                                                              -Perfection...