Jeeze, I hate being like this. I like it when my mind is sharp and I can think and come up with all kinds of witty stuff. Now someone has snuck in and filled my head with gray mud and filled by bones with lead. No motivation, no will to feel better, no brain worth talking about. Some sense of dissatisfaction is keeping me awake, like I'm waiting to find something on the DS forums that will make me feel whole and make me feel ready to sleep. Right now I'm feeling incomplete. Seems like a lot of my frineds are suffering from the I feel shitty's. I'm worried for so many people. I know that I can sink right into the pit and still emerge from it safely. I'm not going to hurt myself. So many others here are willing to toss their lives away, though. I worry about it. Well, I can sleep as late as I want tomorrow. I think I need it. Now, if that damned cat will just leave me alone I might feel better tomorrow. When I'm not myself I feel like I'm letting other people down. More motivation to try to kick myself out of this, I guess. Good night, everyone.
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Awe...poor Alph. I\'m sorry to hear that you\'re feeling like that. I know how you feel though...and I do have to admit, that being impulsive as I am...I do tend to do things that would end in \"tossing my life away\". But that\'s one of the only ways I know how to deal.
I\'m glad that you\'re not going to do anything dangerous to yourself. I\'d miss you if you did. A lot of us would, you\'re so loved.
And you\'re right, you will emerge from this...it\'s just got to take it\'s course. We\'re all here for you buddy. *hugs*
It\'s a curse as well as a blessing, suffering from depression. Yes, a blessing too. I equate DS with having both those \'qualities\'. If you are on all the time may be dragged down under the current. I hope you take days off now and then because it\'s a desensitizing place. After awhile, to me at least, the pain of others starts to lose it\'s meaning due to the numbness about to set over me. Time away helps me maintain a perspective. Rather than staying on......watching.......waiting.....for what?
You are a wonderful, sensitive man. I think we all need to keep a protective guard up around these parts - otherwise the negativity crawls into your psyche. I know I had a hard time yesterday, too. Hang in there, the force is with you whether or not you can see it.