I felt blah yesterday.  Another completely unproductive day at work -- fortunately I got a lot done last week and I was able to hold my own during the Panel meeting.  I stayed up way to late the night before tilting at Xs an Os sent by someone spaming the depression group for whatever reason.  I got sniped at a couple of times, which stung more than I expected.   The snipes were foolish and untrue, but nevertheless.... sigh. Someone posted the question "what makes you happy" yesterday, to which I could only respond, "helping other people".  That could explain why I've been happier than usual since I've started on DS.  I guess that getting back pats makes me feel good as well.  All of these things only last for as long as they are happening though.  Somehow I gotta find a reason to be happy inside.  That's the trick, it is. I'm still tired.  I just want to sleep.  I think its my meds, but I think it's also a desire to escape the world.  But when I'm away from the world I get depressed.  So I guess I'll just stay in orbit and be confused.  It's never worked for me in the past, so it's gotta work this time, right? Hmm...something seems wrong there.  Maybe I'll figure it out if I sleep on it.