Why do I feel like I was on a roller coaster ride today?  Just trying to understand what everyone gets so upset about in these forums is a big challenge for me.  I don't get angry as a rule, even under direct attack, so anger tends to confuse me.  The worst form of anger I get is enough to give someone a firm, well-reasoned scolding.  I sometimes worry that I miss something when I can't get angery. Well, I won't loose any sleep over it. So many broken souls.  I know that mine is broken too, but I still fell like a faker compaired to some of the stories on here.  I once had a dream about a perfect drug...one that someone would take and would immediately give them a healthy state of mind.  It involved heroin and orange juice, I think.  Some kind of designer drug gone horribly right.  What I wouldn't give to be able to innoculate everyone against the pain they suffer from.  I'm still a Christ wanna-be.  I want to heal at a touch.  I don't see any angels giving me a heads up, though, so I guess I'll just keep doing the best I can. I'm a librarian for God's sake.  Who am I to want to heal the world.