I lost a good friend of mine to cancer yesterday..  She was only 19 years old (20 actually--yesterday was her birthday).  I can't honestly say that I knew her very well, but her bright spirit wrapped itself around my heart almost immediately.  She was very well loved. So I'm kinda down right now.  I logged in last night and saw two people writing, "I'm leaving" posts in the depression forums, and I knew that others were dropping left and right.  I just got here.  I don't want everyone to take off.  It really kinda struck me hard.  My abandonment issues are based on paranoid feelings that noone likes me.  That's just my conditioning from school (damn, does school screw all of us up?) Anyway I've had better weekends.  My wife hasn't been sleeping at night again.  Her lithium levels are too low.  She's talking about going back to the hospital. She sees her doctor again today and I'm hoping she can get her straightened out again.  I never know what to do. So tired.  Gotta go to work today.  I REALLY don't want to go.