Well, the worst is over now. I feel human again. Back in DS bigtime and back in my game. I think I'm still going to take one more day off from work just so I don't get weird and colapse or any of that kind of embarrasing stuff. It is so hard on these boards when you can't seem to reach people. Some people are here because they just need to know that someone cares, and they buck up right away. Others are here because they somehow feel the need to announce their intention to kill themselves to someone, and nothing you can do or say is going to change their mind. Some, I'm sure, play head games. I wish I could tell who and which. Someone implied she was going to do something tonight despite our help. I used 3 good posts on her and even got a hug from her. I got the impression that she wasn't totally serious when she said "bye bye", but who knows? Will I ever know? The blind leading the blind through triage. Suicidals can be soul sucking in these groups. Tonight was bad that way. I think I made a difference in a couple of cases. That's what it's all about, I guess Good night.
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\"The blind leading the blind through triage.\" I\'m going to remember that one. I\'ve been trying to describe this place. Sometimes you know you helped someone and then the next day they are back with their face in the dust. I know I\'ve done that myself and frustrated people, when I\'m back down again and they don\'t understand.
I also know that I\'ve helped someone on a very bad day to get up and be productive so that makes it worth it. Give and take, criss-cross. It\'s all worth it for the crap shoot that someone feels better, or later they will help me back.
well I am not fake, and although I have thought of ending my life I have never ever asked for anyones advice on it, I think that is a personal decision and only to be made my the person who feels it and one not to be made in haste. that said yes there are alot of fakes on here and I try to feel out people before I talk to much to them usually you can tell fairly quickly who are liars and who are not.
Better we try to help even a fake than we turn our heads away and not look at others\' pain. You obviously are a nice guy and I bet somewhere there is a blind triage nurse. Hugs!