Another mixed day yesterday.  It started with two back to back work meetings (OK), a psychiatric appointment (OK), getting a project that I didn't think I'd be able to do done on time (WONDERFUL), realizaing that I missed some aspects of the project, still (SUCKY), fixing those aspects (GOOD), finding out that the database wasn't finding several large hunks of data that it was finding before (MAJOR SUCKY), taking the PC home and quickly discovering and fixing the problem, and discovering that the problem was my director's fault (SWEET), letting my wife and daughter go shopping without me for a new purse for my daughter's  birthday (RELAXING), joining them for dinner (OK), listening to my wife talk loudly about everything that goes through her head for a couple of hours (PAINFUL), letting my attention drift for ten seconds to see if I got an DS hugs, and then getting told by the wife that my virtual friends are more important than her, that I never listen to her, and that our marriage is on the rocks (DESTRESSING, STRESSFUL, CRAWL INTO BEDROOM AND PULL COVERS OVER MY HEAD).For the love of God, I need a safe place.  At least let me be here.  At least let me get some virtual hugs from people who I need sometimes and who need me sometimes.  At least let this place be private, where I can try to work through my honest feelings without worry of retribution.I'm exhuasted.   There's a snow storm outside.  I have a cold.  I have to take my 11 year old to a Hannah Montana 3D movie tonight.  Think I'm up to it?  I'll survive, but I am SO hoping that the thing gets canceled because of snow.  Sigh.

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storm is bad here also.....keep strong liz xo