It is Friday!!!! Today is beautiful.  Sunny and supposed to be 80.  Josh would have loved a day like today.  I can see him coming out of the house with his rainbow flip flops on, shorts and his favorite yellow t-shirt.  Monday was 15 months of living without Josh.  Easter was OK.  I went to the cementary on Saturday and washed it good.  It was just a shining.  Left there and felt the need to go to the scene.  I sat at his cross looked at all the beautiful daffodils blooming that we planted.  I was sitting there and I wish you could have seen the biggest butterfly fly around them.  Josh was with me then and will be forever.  Last night I went to a new support group called Friends of Compassion.  I have been attending CF and the last couple of times really did not get a lot out of the meetings.  Friends of Compassion is a group that is in my home town and have been meeting for 11 years and I had no idea.  Last night there was only three that showed up counting me.  Usually they have about 13 to 14 but with Easter holidays.  But, I really bonded with the two mothers that showed up.  I will be going back.  Josh is sending me to new friends like he sent you to me.   Josh, I love you buddy.  Thank you for the 16 years we had together.  Thank you for all the memories.  What would I have without those memories?  You are forever in my heart.  I love you and miss you.  OH!! I almost forgot to tell you we are putting the garden pond down tomorrow in your memorial garden.  I can't wait to put some fish in it and sit out there and talk to you.  Love, Mama