Well, This week will be 11 months since I last heard Josh's voice. Tonight I got a phone call telling me who called 911 that awful morning. A couple riding by saw his truck resting in the trees. The wife saw it first and told her husband. He did not see it at first. They walked up to Josh and my baby was already gone. They stayed with him until the rescue arrived and then they left. Part of me has wanted to know how 911 was called for almost a year. Now that I know it brings the tears streaming down my face. It hurts so damn bad. I just don't know how I can make it through. I want him back so bad. It's not fair to any of us. We still do not know what caused the accident. It's like John said Josh is the only one who knows. God, Please take away some of the pain. At least he was not by himself. Someone was with him and stayed with him until help arrived. I am a basket case now. It's like reliving it. 
I want my Josh back. Oh God, Why him? Why any of our children? I need him here with me. My life is nothing without him. No purpose anymore. I love you Josh.
I want my Josh back. Oh God, Why him? Why any of our children? I need him here with me. My life is nothing without him. No purpose anymore. I love you Josh.
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Dear God, I feel your pain! I wish I had answers, and I wish there were a way to bring our children back. One day I picked up the Bible, and I searched for answers, and I found one verse that made sense to me. I want to share it with you, and I hope that it brings you even the smallest bit of peace my friend.
Isaiah 57 1-2
The righteous pass away; the godly often die before their time. And no one seems to care of wonder why. No one seems to understand that God is protecting them from the evil to come. For the godly who die will rest in peace.
Big hugs, and I\'m here for you love
Candice
Rhonda, I am so sorry for the pain you\'re feeling. It\'s nice that Josh was not alone. I am here for you whenever you need. After Andrew\'s visit, I\'m at peace, at least for now, so I\'m not going anywhere. Love you, hugging you and praying for you.
Dawn
my friend..im cryin with you...my heart is so very sad also...then when candice told you about the verse in the bible that made me cry...huggin u tight...i wish i could hug u in person......im so sorry ur hurting...love ya
I\'m so sorry you\'re having to relive this painful memory. My son too was \"gone\" when someone arrived to him. I hate to think he suffered even the few seconds it took him to leave the road and hit the tree. It\'s so painful anyway we look at it. I do believe that now they are painfree, worryfree, safe and happy. Praying for you tonight. Love Robin
It has to be some comfort to know that Josh was not left alone, that they cared enough to stay with him. Praying for you to find some comfort in this. Hugs, Vera~Erick\'s mom
God girl how I feel your pain. I\'m glad they stayed with Josh and he wasn\'t alone. John was alone on the road until the EMT\'s arrived and resuscitated him, it drives me crazy that he was alone when he died. May God ease your pain and may you find the peace beyond understanding the Bible talks about. Love and hugs Cathy
these are the little things that bring it all back. i do believe that when we leave our bodies, we are surrounded by so many who are with us all the time, and they are there to help us cross. i have to believe joeys dad was there with him when he left his body. love to you with all my heart, marianne