Today is Monday and I changed my smiley face.  I guess I can say I am happy for the 16 years that I had Josh in my life.  Yesterday was hard, but I made it through it.  I have a TCF meeting tonight (Very Thankful).  I really need it.  I had a very beautiful son.  He was a mama's boy.  I think about all the time we spent together not even thinking that one day he would not be here.  I am trying to put on the excellent smiley face today, but damn it is so hard. 

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I am glad you had that 16 years to get to know your little guy. you are such a great momma or he wouldnt have been a mommas boy. my heart goes out to you and hope your TCF meeting is helpful. love you alissa
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Josh is still with you. One of the things that Jake told me when I went to see Marcel is \"I am not gone, I am just not here\". Also that he is safe, happy and ok. These things help me on a daily basis. Lots of love, Jake\'s mom, Kathy
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Sixteen years is a good amount of time to love someone but an incredibly short lifetime. I find Cf and Ds to be my salvation, without them I\'d be lost. I come from a very small small, town and the internet is my support group. You still havea beautiful son, who has a wonderful Mamma. Josh Is still his Momma\'s boy. Love and Hugs Cathy John\'s Mom