day 5

Yeah, day 5 and i feel a bit worse. It's to be expected though, the denial phase starts to disappear right now, you don't hear from her at all and you are starting to believe that she is totally serious about it.
I don't know if I mentioned this, but she is one of my best friends cousins. Which just makes everything a tiny bit worse. She set us up because she thought we would be great together and well I thought that we were, now though I'm in the middle of family and really I'm the only one that is actually devastated. I think that she is a little upset maybe, but as usual she probably geared herself up to break up if that makes sense.
So, I'm feeling lonely and a little hopeless. It's sad that I'm becoming an expert on rejection. Really before this I have had 2 very long relationships which (before the last one ended) I thought I was quite blessed on the whole love front, and now look at me lol. Rejection after rejection from not strangers, no. From my girlfriends.
My only solution is to just take myself out of the whole romance game. I do still love my ex after all and she broke up with me because she was sure it wouldn't work and didn't want us to get more hurt further on down the line. I know that basically is quite bad and not a basis for hope at all, but I will hope that maybe some day whatever it is that made her certain we wouldn't work, I hope that that will be different.
Most likely it won't happen, so I don't need to hear anyone say that though lol.